almost 3 months out and I'm at -100 total lost since I started this path. Post surgery I have lost 75ish lbs.
I know I've literally dropped the weight of a small woman but I don't care. It's not enough. I'm not bitching.. just mentally for me its not enough. Guess I'm just impatient.
Barely anything feels different.
I don't feel better about myself.
I don't have more energy.
I don't feel like its been worth it so far.
I don't even look different.
Only things that have changed are:
Clothes are too loose.
I eat a lot more freaking cheese now.
I can't eat good food regularly.
I can't eat and drink at the same time.
But good news is that I have been on my goal of about 20-25lbs lost a month since after surgery.
Hoping for another -50 by my birthday which is in September. If I hit that goal.. maybe I'll finally be happy about something. Hopefully I can make it.
Oh, and -25 by the night before I step onto the plane to go to SF in August.
PS- I picked up a 25lb dumbbell the other day.. and it felt so heavy. WTF I carried around 4 of those with me for the past year +? holy fuck man. That puts it in perspective.
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