Wait, What?

So I've been doing cardio off and on since my last post.. usually going the normal 1 mile in 20 minutes.

It's been off an on because I couldn't really walk until about a week ago.

Anyways,

I am trying to make a conscious effort to take all my vitamins and junk because I read somewhere that being vitamin deficient leads to lethargy (which i think i have been experiences) and joint/body pain. Yea I don;t wanna deal with that junk anymore so I definitely have to try to fix that by being responsible.

So, Me and Charlie are trying out this new gym this week. It's not so bad.

I started out at 298-299 on Oct 30th. <-- Thats the day that I finally got under 300. FINALLY!
But after a week of actually working out + cardio I went up to 302 this morning.

WTF MAN.

lol soooo I also read that to drop more weight you need more protein. Well I guess that means I'm def gonna try to get more protein in my foods and take 1-2 protein drinks a day. Really want this weight to drop. Gaining freaks me the fuck out.

I was really hoping to get to 285 by thanksgiving. I doubt that Will happen now. I'll be glad (i say this now.. ill probably still be dissapointed if I hit it) if I hit 290 by the time i leave for San Francisco on the 23rd.

Me and charlie are gonna try to do 3-4 days of lifting and cardio. Which i think is about where I wanted to be. 5+ was overdoing it on my shitastic legs.

It has been apparent that my ankles and feet became wicked bad when its about to rain and when it does rain. Fuck that shit. Luckily so far this week it has been nice and sunny. I need that shit. It is supposed to rain tomorrow I think. Hopefully I don't get to affected by it.

I'll try to do more cardio tonight.

Saturday was cardio + chest
Monday was cardio + Legs
Wednesday was cardio + Back and Biceps.

looks like I'll have to try to get cardio in tonight or tomorrow. Probably tomorrow.

I need to tighten up my loose ass skin. It's getting super duper annoying now. Hopefully by summer it tightens up.. Im hoping by christmas I start seeing some results. Might try to save 30 dollars and go lift with vutha over thanksgiving? god i cant believe its 10 dollars a visit there. fawk.

Fuck gaining weight when you barely eat anything. fuck fuck fuck.

beer is fuel!

After a long/short weekend in chicago I came back sore and tired.

1:15pm-1:45

18 minute mile on treadmill (3.3 speed)

12 minutes on the bike ... 2 miles (5/3 resistence)

My feet still kill... i think i might just have to work thru it.

Tomorrow gonna do chests and cardio again.

I hate arthritis

I hate arthritis and not being able to take NSAIDs.
FUCK ulcers because of NSAIDs.

anyways both ankles are saying FUCK YOU to me this morning so I doubt I'll be able to exercise. All i wanted to do today was walk or bike for 30 minutes.

No lifting today anyways.
I'm going to try to follow the work out plan that is highlighted on http://www.scoobysworkshop.com/schedintermediate.htm , which is lift every other day and do 20-30 min of cardio every day.

sounds like a good plan. I'm gonna rest my ankles today and if it doesnt get better by tomorrow then I'm just gonna continue popping vicodin and just tough it out.

I really wish i could take some NSAIDs for the arthritis. Damn surgery and ulcers!

Day 2: haha quit already? naw!

so i woke up today and my arthritic left ankle was hurting like a bitch today but it wasnt too tight so i decided to work out anyways. here's my log

1:50pm-2:50pm

1 Mile - 19:30 minutes - walking (3.0 speed--ankle hurt)

2 x 8 - 15lb - Dumbbell lat/tri pull up --whatever its called
2 x 8 - 20lb

1 x 8 - 10lb - Dumbbell Bicep Curl
2 x8 - 20lb - Dumbbell Bicep Curl

3 x 8 - 50lb - Machine Bicep Curl
1 x 6 - 50lb - to failure

1 x 8 - 50lb - Machine tricep extension (had to stop because wrists hurt from bending weird)
1 x 8 - 20lb - Dumbbell Tricep extension
1 x 7 - 20lb - to failure

2 miles -12:30 minutes - bike - resistance 6/3

They didnt have the 25lb dumbbells for some reason so i had to stick to 20lbs. The 30lb ones felt soooo heavy.

I'm pooped and tired and sore.
I'm icing my ankle right now... its killing me.

it's raining today so i hope its just the weather that is making it kill.

I'm hoping its better tomorrow. I did the bike experiment. The first mile was horrendous and torturous. I almost wanted to quit. surprised I got 2 miles out of it. Im so out of shape haha. biking made my knees burn. is that freaking normal?

I need 1 leg day but these little gym in my apt just has leg curls and leg extensions.. hmm.. what to do?

I'll vutha.

UPDATE: Day 1 back to the gym

310 lbs as of yesterday.

-147 lbs.

went to the gym today. tired.

2:30pm-3:30pm

1 mile (3.3 speed) - 18:10 minutes

2 x 8 - 110 bench
1 x 8 - 120 bench
1 x 4 - 120 bench (to failure)

2 x 8 - 80 butterfly
1 x 8 - 90 butterfly
1 x 3 - 90 butterfly (to failure)

1 mile (3.3 speed) - 18:10 minutes

hoping for 285 by Thanksgiving or 275 by Christmas.

lets see if I dont flake out.


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I've been failing at eating lately.

Either I dont eat enough/forget to eat i eat pure shit (fried foods).

God damnit.

I need to get back on the ball. Made semi healthy spaghetti and homemade meatballs last night.
Broiled the meat instead of frying it.
it came out ok. who knew cooking took so long? haha

tonight is chili.

Sometimes an Impulse is a good thing!

Back in August 2008 I was trying to lose weight to be considered a candidate for Weight Loss Surgery.... I had lost maybe 10-20lbs and was trying on old clothes.

I found some old jeans and found that they barely fit.. i was so excited.. then I found this Suit jacket that I wore early in college (2002-2004) and saw that the arms and chest fit.. but stomach did not come close to fitting.

fast forward to tonight and I had another impulse to see what old clothes I had would fit...

surprise surprise!!!

That old suit jacket is almost too big for me now.

Hell YEA!

wow... if only I could see the changes for myself.. I need clothes to tell me I lost weight. UGH.

Not Cool.....

almost 3 months out and I'm at -100 total lost since I started this path. Post surgery I have lost 75ish lbs.

I know I've literally dropped the weight of a small woman but I don't care. It's not enough. I'm not bitching.. just mentally for me its not enough. Guess I'm just impatient.

Barely anything feels different.
I don't feel better about myself.
I don't have more energy.
I don't feel like its been worth it so far.
I don't even look different.

Only things that have changed are:
Clothes are too loose.
I eat a lot more freaking cheese now.
I can't eat good food regularly.
I can't eat and drink at the same time.


But good news is that I have been on my goal of about 20-25lbs lost a month since after surgery.

Hoping for another -50 by my birthday which is in September. If I hit that goal.. maybe I'll finally be happy about something. Hopefully I can make it.
Oh, and -25 by the night before I step onto the plane to go to SF in August.


PS- I picked up a 25lb dumbbell the other day.. and it felt so heavy. WTF I carried around 4 of those with me for the past year +? holy fuck man. That puts it in perspective.